I dono wat to say abt the incident. My eye had been twitchin for a fews days b4 the incident happen..

Sat afternoon was still happily tellin my dad, sun will bring him to Orchid Garden to walk walk.. that afternoon still saw my ah gu at my aunt house.. I realise sth was not right in him but cant pin point to anything.. jus know that he was so not himself.. i also din really took more notice as i was rushin out.

Dinner wif lao po at tao's.. it happen so suddenly at the dinner.. Nobody knew abt it.. even my laopo din sense it.. Sudden pain was felt in my heart and it beat faster n faster.. the premonition was gettin stronger and stronger.. and it lasted for quite sometime.. I have been tryin hard to stop thinkin for the worst, but eventually it still happen.. and yes it was abt the time that my ah gu was admitted to hospital coz of stroke.

Sun orchid garden event was disturb by the sudden news brought to us. He has been complainin abt headache for fews weeks, and the unusual him at aunt house. I shld have realise earlier..

Its the second time that i notice sth, but i din say much abt it. i really hate it. The premonotion came true again.. Y things turn out to be let that. obivously i know sth is not rite, but y everytime it happen den i realise the importance of those warnin sign; and yes, i only realise it is a warnin sign until thins happen.. the 1st time was my ah gong. he was coughin out blood when we went to visit him after his discharge from hospital, and the recent check up show he was perfectly fine. fews months later, he was dignose wif lung cancer. I hate myself for not knowin the blood was a sign to mishap.. i hate myself not saying out earlier then. and within a month after dignose he left us; he cant wait his turn for chemtherapy.

I really hate myself, if i had really take more notice and analyse the situation, mayb things wont turn out to be that worst, maybe there will be a turnin point for it.

the doc had advice my ah gu for operation to remove the blood clog in the brain. I understand his worries, but there is nothin much i can help him in this; its the money issue. seein my aunt worryin for him, i really wish i can help.. but its not within my reach.. Prayin that the blood clog will disperse by itself.. hope he will get well soon.. hao bu rong yi him planned sth for his future.. but yet thin turn out to be this way..

Tian yi nong ren..